Living dead....walkin zombie...stoned, wateva i call it...i am juz so drained...i walk past tha hundreds of people like a hopeless nobody...sum1 whu lives each fuckin day as it comes...followin a lame timetable of work school wif huge loads of fatigue in between both...All this while i look at frens whu get to fool arnd at times i go off to work, while i struggle to find a balance between work and school...I am juz so drained....each day i return home a zombie...walkin juz coz i got to reach home...my eyes see thru ppl and eyes so dark...sometimes i wonder whether it is all worth it......i earn a measli five an hour...lose all my latter years of teenaged life....Life is so fuckin unfair.......
Speakin of unfairness... i not onli am physicalli drained....i am also sapped by emotional baggage tat weighs me down evrywhere....a certain fren whu thinks i played him out....a certain close group i once belonged to....a certain person whu seemed a lot but now seems juz a mere mirage of tat..........Maybe i think alot and maybe i am seein it in a bad perspective but my whole fuckin life all meager 18 years of it seems so useless and fucked-up.......i need an outlet to vent my fears...my feelins..juz sumtin or sum1 for me to release stuff and juz talk things over.... i realised how alone i feel now........all my fuckin life i lived my life arnd frens but at this time of need i am at a loss at a fren in need..........How i fuckin need a shoulder,,, a comfortin hug and sum1 to juz lie to me tat i am alright..............
1 comment:
a lot of people have it a hell lot worse.
count your blessings.
the glass is half-full; it's all about perspectives.
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